When My Heart Is Overwhelmed

I am strong.

I can handle anything.

I can juggle three jobs and a dozen fluctuating schedules. I can keep a clean, organized home and prepare homemade meals. I can spend time with people, and get along with people, and invest in people, and talk to people, and help people. I can deal with my own problems and everyone else’s. I can manage my crazy life and spend significant time with God every day. I have the right perspective. I see things clearly. I can shrug at calamity and laugh at the future. I’ve got it all under control.

And I can do all of this while living with chronic pain. That nagging, never-ending distraction that threatens to tear me apart. No big deal. I can handle it.

And I can handle all of this on my own. Alone.

I have family and friends, but let’s be real – I am alone. I don’t have someone with whom to share my life. Someone who knows my heart. Someone who cares that much. But that’s okay. I don’t need that anyway. I can handle all of this stuff just fine on my own.

I am self-sufficient. Independent. Rock solid. Unwavering.

I am strong.

Until this week, when it all comes crashing down and the truth comes out. I am weak.

Unable.

Defeated.

Crushed.

Stripped.

In every way overwhelmed.

And it is then and there – when my heart is overwhelmed – that I rejoice to know the true Rock.

For there I find my greatest Strength. My surest Comfort. My ever-deepening Joy.

When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2

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2 thoughts on “When My Heart Is Overwhelmed

  1. Dear Lydia –

    While I know that God can accomplish much through our suffering…..and, by His grace, you maintain such a good attitude. But — just in case there is one more stone that you have not turned over, (and you can bring yourself to explore any further) I’d recommend Dr Annette Bosworth (YouTube). My husband and I have been helped a lot through what we’ve learned through her. If this short video intrigues you, there’s much more that she shares on YouTube.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFHmxwaVlJo For what it’s worth, Susie

    On Sat, Feb 16, 2019 at 7:18 PM Journey of the Word wrote:

    > Lydia Borengasser posted: ” I am strong. I can handle anything. I can > juggle three jobs and a dozen fluctuating schedules. I can keep a clean, > organized home and make homemade food. I can spend time with people, and > get along with people, and invest in people, and talk to ” >

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